BPD struggles

@nbchild Oh that sounds pretty hard for you. Fear of abandoment is such a big issue in BPD, that we do whatever we can do avoid it, and when people do leave or we lose them.. it's heartbreaking. It can be so overwhelming! I'm glad you're here and you shared how you feel, it's not an easy thing to go throw on your own - and we're here for each other, as a community!
We care so much for people, we care so much for those close to us or people we love, that it hurts us way too much when they leave. It huts because it matters! But I hope you find some support or people you find understand you, be it in real life or online. We all deserve that!

@nbchild

It is very hard with BPD. People with BPD tend to push everyone they love away without knowing. I am certain that you will get through this. You are sensitive because of your emotions and the inability to control them, but there are people out there who loves you and you might not be able to see it, but they are trying to help you.

You poor baby <3 You are on a learning journey right now, you will inevitebly push people away, but how can you get through it without ? The people who should be in your life who are meant to stay will stay. And as you grow and recover, you will grow thicker bonds with people. The people who leave don't understand, and they are making room for better and more solid relationships in your life. Keep focusing on you, this is your journey and your life and you can do it <333

@nbchild

I'm sorry you're feeling so broken. That's a horrible place to find oneself in. I hope things look up soon.

@nbchild I have BPD as well and it does cause problems within relationships. The best advise I can give you is to remember that people come and go. The most important thing is that you still, and always will have you, so be kind to yourself. Live in the moment by doing mindfulness meditation. A few more things for you to think about; As you are in your mind, so you will be in your heart. The world cannot change a person unless its allowed, but one person can change the world. The hard truth is that it's your responisbility as an individual to be alright by yourself. Try gtting into hobbies and do the things you love. Find joy in the moment because the moment always holds beautiful miracles, you just have to choose to see them.