Idk
I feel like I'm always trying to build myself, create a solid personality so that I can walk among people as one of them, but the qualities and faults I try to attribute myself never stick. I know how people work and that I should be like them- that I am like them, really, and that I just can't see it- but all I feel is a hollowness and the sense that I'm floating away from myself. It all sounds so pathetic and I despise every word I'm typing, but I need this out of me, even if just to reference later. **** (edited by sailorelix for language), I feel like I'm not even here. None of this is mine. Maybe I'm already dead. Maybe I need to do it again. Maybe I just need a drink. Oh my god, this is pathetic
@MiloIsBoring
I can understand how challenging all that must be, it can be hard to find yourself in general. But having BPD adds on a whole bunch of layers of complication. I am here for you. Feel free to message me if you'd like. You are never alone <3
@MiloIsBoring
Your post sounds like my life. I don't know how to act. I don't seem to fit in anywhere. I don't know who I am anymore. I'm watching from somewhere else.
