I'm lost I just don't even know..
Well I was diagnosed with BPD in December. I'm 17. I don't really know what its about.. I have an idea? But my mind is racing and I don't know what to do. There is this guy he hasn't answered me today. Then I went to the pool and like freaked because my social anxiety. I keep thinking about how I'm just a non functional person. Because I can't even go in Walmart by myself.. My moods change so fast. Like.. Idk.. I literally over think everything. I'm always feeling lonely. I hate myself. My scars are horrific. Like I feel like a monster. I'm losing my mind. Because I don't know. I wanna sleep but I can't? I have lost everyone near me. I don't even know what to do. I'm to depressed all the time, my anxiety is always like there, and my moods are horrible.. Idk if I suffer from paranoia or what. I always think someone is talking about me, looking at me, making fun of me. I'm just losing my mind.. Its so bad. Everything is just.. Ugh..
There is such terrible sadness even in your user name. Although I don't want to argue with you, at the same time I do want you to know that you are wanted here at 7 Cups. Having to wait so long for someone to reply in this forum might not make it seem like that, but you are.
It seems surprising that whoever diagnosed you with BPD back in December didn't explain what it is about and what can be done to help. There are things that can be done to help, but what is available to you will depend on local arrangements where you are.
I hope you have found listeners here at 7 Cups who understand how bad everything is for you and who are helpful. If you'd like to chat to me, do send me a message.
@Theunwanted
