So alone
My borderline personality has become overwhelming these past few weeks. I have lost my ability to cope and control it like I once was able to. I’m afraid it will ruin my relationships, work & life. I don’t have many friends anymore as they either moved away or I’ve unfortunately pushed them away. I find it very difficult to make friends as I’m very socially awkward and shy and often fear getting to know people. My boyfriend is so beyond kind to me but I’m finding it incredibly hard to trust him due to my abandonment issues and past experiences that have made me fear in all my relationships since. I need a friend, someone I can talk to who understand this struggle.
@grungegirlxo
I'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through. Thank you for taking the time to share with us, your struggle and how it makes you feel. That takes immense strength and courage. BPD is no joke, and it's effects can be so so so so gruesome. It really is hard, and it makes so much sense you feel like you're alone currently. Of course you wish there was someone who you can talk to and who understands your pain. As for your boyfriend, I understand how it would be hard to trust him after your past experiences. Again, it's very very very hard. No matter how good he treats you, it's like you're waiting for him to betray your trust somehow. I get it. I hope this situation gets better soon. I hope you get someone/many someones that can be there for you to support you during this difficult time. Sending loads of support your way.
I completely understand how you feel. I can relate.
I feel exactly the same. I wish there was a way for u to message me every time u feel the need for someone that understands
