I hate BPD
I hate how indecisive I am. I can neither hate someone or love someone fully i mean i can but then I cannot think. I hate how expensive therapy is. I feel like a burden honestly. Honestly thanks for listening to me rant:3
@raspberryBunny6363
Hello,
I can resonate with your indecisiveness. Loving and unloving fully is scary now that I know how I am when I am either of those. I don't know why you think you are a burden, but you seem like a caring person. Burden? Far from it. What makes you feel you are one?
Is there any organisations around you through which you can get therapy, hopefully, a little cheaper?
I hope we all can fix our indecisiveness, it's really tough.
Thank you for your kind words but I've failed my parents and myself. I really tired of hearing harsh words and my indecisiveness makes it worse as i juggle between thinking who's really at fault me or someone else? It's usually my parents and ik they love me but it hurts:( but it's life ***. I've no personal space and I cannot do anything that I love. My mom hates if she sees me writing in my diary or watching phone or reading non academic books. I cannot move out this year.
I'm not sure. I'm looking for a therapist who excels at CBT and I received information about such a therapist but I don't want to ask for money.
Thank you:3
@raspberryBunny6363
From what I read, it's your parents failing you instead. Sounds suffocating, not being able to do things you do and even express yourself. It's understandable to feel hurt. They can love you and be wrong at the same time. How do you think they would react if you mention therapy and ask for funding help for now? I can see why you don't want to, though.
How have you been doing? Is there anything that helps you cope/feel better in the meantime?
It's suffocating but this shall pass too. I'll still express myself.
I'm already on meds and I don't want to pressure them for therapy. I'll support me but I don't want to hear them saying that because of my therapy they're having issues with their budget.
I'm okay wby? Listening to songs and writing and time fixes it:3
@raspberryBunny6363
Hello kind human,
One step at a time. 💙 Those are some greeat ways. I am doing okay too!