If it's not NPD then uhhhhh...

What else is this, what do I call this lack of genuine empathy, what do I call this...thing of me only really forming relationships for my own benefit, ultimately, and being disgustingly underdeveloped in the caring about people department...

Could be! But can't. I actually happen to think I'm quite shitty! Not great, not grand. I barely have any skills. I'm below others, not above. I'm not a role model, or an ideal partner. And I don't like looking at myself in the mirror. Hell I probably care less about my appearance now than ever.

I guess I'm just a platypus? Except completely unidentifiable? Just a mixture of things that I'll never understand.