TW Life within the storms
trigger warning
Life within the storms
People say family is the heart of one
we disagree due to what we been through
little we was and we depend on them for everything
but they did not do as they should have did
they became like monsters to the child
they took the us and used us our body no belong to us
Life within the storms
some we was their punching-bag they hit us and well we could do nothing
others we was their sex toy used and used again
even used by others so they could get money from them
yelling screaming was all we know as that was how they communicated to us
scared to upset them scared to disobey them
we belonged to them they owned us so rented us out
others say how great they be how kind and caring they be
but we know the truth that just acted they do when around others
but the mounters they be hide inside until they home
we programmed to be what they want to have no identity of our own
we grow up be we not know this we lived in not way all live
so we repeat the cycle marry abuser
he lies to us to get us to marry him
we be his trophy wife that he now owns
the bedroom become a room of pain not love
one kid after another we had been ordered to have them
he wanted many many kids but we only gave him 3
the abuse repeated the kids became his ones to hurt
we no longer a women we only a it he says
this due to we got fixed so no more kids we will be having
lost we be tired we be he no help at all with the kids
zombie all we be after no sleep at all
we lose the kids to the government
sinking deep within the darkness within
we no longer wanted to be here as he and others blamed us
we runaway from him in the night scared but brave too
but no were to go but back into the darkness of the past
we end up were we started back with the monsters again
family that abuses us but now only with words
year and years pass many things happen
we all along been reaching out for help
healing within the abuse but it be slow and hard
bright light come when at last freedom comes for us
move away from them to new city and new people
find that some care and well they really want t know us
we find our identity apart from them
we be us not what they did to us but us a person
now our healing journey go on but with new freedom too
@stormieandpaws
I can never begin to comprehend and imagine all you've been through.
Your bravery is so inspiring and I'm wishing you the absolute best 🩷
@Amanda84
thank you last night was triggered in chat so we wrote this when we had stepped away from the chatroom for a time we was not always brave in this healing journey we had some really bad times within it as our ex hubby was brainwashing us he wanted us to be no more but in end we runaway in the night from him and end up being with parents for a time then in same city with them then back to their home again after apartment fire the another apartment in same city then we moved away from them to were we at now it was scary at first due to know no one and had never used buses to get around but we in less then a month got to point we saw the freedom and well on next steps of healing journey
would tell others who living in abuse to even if it scary and hard to get away even if to new place in different city or even state it worth it in the end
freedom feel amazing to be without daily abuse is freedom even if your alone like we be
I'm so sorry to hear that you went through a horrible experience hoping you get better soon
I'm so sorry to hear that you went through a horrible experience hoping you get better soon
@pioneeringOak6154
thank you even within the worst of things we saw looking back the lessons learned and tiny blessing even big ones everything happens for a reason we believe even the bad awful stuff
@stormieandpaws I loved this poem a lot. Thank you. 😊
