Falling Down, Decline, Getting Worse

Nothing excites me anymore

Everything has become boring and dull

I'm tired of existing, my life is boring

I want to live, live, laugh, love, be happy

I can't stand not feeling anything beautiful

Not feeling love

Not knowing where those who are supposed to be close to me are

To be alone, to have driven them all away

To not exist for them

I want to exist, live, feel beautiful

To get out of what I am now, from this black hole I'm deep in

To come out into the light so my eyes can laugh and my soul can be free

I don't recognize myself anymore

I hate myself

I'm so stupid, useless, ordinary, idle, without an identity

I can't stand it anymore, I want to create something new, to be reborn, or to be forever sleep to die

But all this seems so difficult, so distant