Is it wrong ?🥀

Sometimes my thoughts are too messy.

I don’t even know what I’m supposed to feel.

Sometimes I feel nothing at all—

just numbness sitting quietly inside me.

And sometimes I feel everything

all at once,

so much that it becomes unbearable.

They say the world holds happiness.

They say light waits somewhere

behind every dark hour.

But what if I have stared

into the dark for so long

that light begins to feel

like a rumor

When people say

“everything will be okay,”

it feels like a lie—

not because I want it to be,

but because I can’t see it anymore.

Maybe I’ve forgotten

what happiness even feels like.

Sadness, though—

sadness feels familiar.

Like an old place

my heart keeps returning to.

Now nothing seems right,

even when people promise that it is.

I just feel lost.

Too lost.

Nothing seems to work anymore.

Maybe I am too negative—

but how do I deny

what I actually feel?

How do I pretend everything is fine

when it isn’t?

How do I believe

that everything will be okay

when I cannot see the way there?

I don’t know anymore.

So I keep asking myself—

is it wrong

to feel like this?

It's all actually true or its my mind that is too negative and lost to not being able to see the light?