Where have you gone?

I spent months, days, years, yearning for this

A cliche friends to lovers story

I wanted this all my life

To stop in the middle of a long walk

And have the grand old epiphany of being in love with a friend

Now I’m wishing I could go back to the start

Because I didn’t know this epiphany would bring guilt

Restlessness and an undying desire to spend every single day with you

I want to look ever so sweetly into your eyes and tell you I love you

I want to watch a sunset with you

I remember seeing the way the stage-lights fell down the side of your face

And how your long golden locks perfectly decorate it

I remember standing from the side thinking you have Apollo’s beauty

But I’m supposed to be casual, we’re only supposed to tell each other funny jokes and compliment each other but not too much

I’m supposed to just be your friend

The more I’ve tried talking to you

The more absent you’re becoming

Did I scare you away?

Does the reality of being closer with me make you want to run away?

Does the possibility that I love you scare you?

Can’t you see?

You’re the golden retriever to my black cat

You, son of Apollo, god of the sun

And me, daughter of Diana, goddess of the moon

It was always a self fulfilling prophecy

No matter how many times I tried to escape

It would always, somehow, find me again

Even when I was never looking

I think I finally understand them now

When they would always tell me

Love happens when you least expect it