life tbh

When I was 4 I learned that boys and girls didn’t mix unless they did. It never made sense but I always went with my friends

When I was 5 I learned what it meant to have a crush on someone. To know that they don’t like you back. That is when I learned why sometimes boys and girls do mix. 

When I was 6, I scratched myself and my brother ran to find a bandaid. This is one of the nicest things he has ever done for me. 

WHen I was 8 i got baptised and made a commitment I still dont understand now. I also learned that friendship is temporary and some people leave you. 

When I was 10 I “dated” for the first time. He told me he liked me and I didn’t know how to say no. Then I found out that some people aren’t always as good as they look, I left him. 

When I was 11 The boy I dated bullied me. I learned people fall to peer pressure as easily as gravity takes a pin that silently hits the floor. 

When I was 12 i learned that people judge as soon as they look at you and that you have to be the person they judge well. I learned that you have to be pretty and mean to be popular, i chose to be nice. I can’t be pretty

When I was thirteen I stopped eating because my waist wasn’t as small as other girls. I only ate one meal a day and it was a bread roll. I learned that torture sometimes exists in the brain when you think your closest friend truly hates you. Everyones opinion mattered and I learned that I would do anything to make it a good opinion.