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Wandering through her dark corners of mind.

She knew she shouldn't feed the hurtful thoughts, but, "who cares?"

So funny that they were people who cared about her... But she sometimes would have denied, or whatever...

She opened her journal, mixed some blue water color with extra water, and purred it all over the journal 💙

It felt, so right; so calming🍃

Next she picked up a brush, then drew an nice, beautiful flying bird on her room's wall. Using the painted journal as the painting Patel 🎨

It was right, the time was right, the weather was right, the painted bird was right, everything was right 🧏‍♀️

An warm, amazing and remarkable smile sat on her face🤍

She opened her door, the brightest colors of happiness filled her heart 💐

With an smile on her face, some paint stains on her hand, and with an mind empty of worry, she ran to her family's embrace.💌

Rise of the Dragon born

("📜"Scroll means the story Tellers's POV)

("🧭"Compass means the main's character's {???} POV)

📜Oooh hail upon the brightest sight.

📜Ooooh it's going to start tonight.

🧭Ran & ran & ran until I find something.

🧭Breathing heavily, so far is nothing.

📜Ooooh he's not ready for what,

📜yet has to come at him straight

🧭I don't know at all what I am doing,

🧭I feel like shadows are near creeping.

📜Oooo the time has come to remember.

📜His destiny awaits him at the end of river.

🧭All I know is, something's calling me,

🧭Telling me there's something to see.

📜18 years ago, the day he opened his eyes,

📜We heard roaring, trembling in Skies.

📜on his right arm was a prophecy,

📜tattoo of an dragon, free of mercy

To be continued~

The tone was playing on my mind almost all day I think, it feels so calming to just, write. This is one of the things I was made to do, to write, yes. It feels absolutely correct. I'm almost always ready to write. Oh and this one is going to be nameless🥀

Why I love to wear masks? Because I'm ashamed of myself? No

Because I'm ashamed of my gender? No. Because I hate the way they look? Yes

So stop pressing me to be myself. You'll reject me too, like they all did

Let me be an pretending star. I know, this is what you truly want

To me, laugh at your uncle jokes, To Cry at your stupid pains,

Wich so funny, I know their false. You want me to be a traditional girl,

To cook, clean, in parties wear a pearl. So freaking please let me be,

I act as you like, don't you want of me? It doesn't mean I'm not a girl,

It doesn't mean I'm in need of help, It doesn't mean I hate makeup,

It doesn't mean... My emotions are made up...

Idk if what I'm doing is correct, But I feel this a way to protect.

Im tired of your mean words, I'm tired of judging, or your spoiled boys.

I'm tired of your favouritism of males

I'm tired of you, seeing me as an slave

Leave me & my family alone. I love them, don't you dare say a word.

So yeah, that's why I'm not comfortable when you're around.

It feels like this mask, this burden, is nailing me to the ground.

So I'll respect you, even pretend if need,

But it doesn't mean this is who I meant to be...

Hmm, hmmm,hmmm,hmmmm. Hoaha,haaaaaa, woha ha, hahahaha, hmmm haha. Mmm, hmmm, oooohmm, hmmm hmmm hmmm, hmmmmm m m m, hoa ha ha ha~

(Me humming the tone In my head, hehe)

Can you love me, from who I truly am?

Would you have emotions, would you stay forever?

Are you willing to spend after life together?

Or you are one of, them...

Was my dream of finding you, false? Your kin are all the same,

If yes,

You would reject my touch, hating me with guts, but acting like I belong...

You would feel frustrated when saying in return that you love,

That you care, that you want...

You were ready to move on together, regarding that we didn't go beyond a hug...

Then why behave like you loved me at first? Why you hold my hand that night?

Why you talked about having children? Why you brought a baby's hair clip?

Why you would brought me those gifts? Why would you... Why... W... Why calling me love, and kissing my Head at the first place?

Why did you dare say you share the passion of Rain, why did you say you like to go on road trips?....

How?

How pretending was so easy for you?

How you beared me loving you?

How would you, h.. how would you, how could you stay silent when I ask, do you love me?

How could you, how... Did... Could .. you... Say, nothing...

Saying that you don't know what to say... I said so it is over?

You again, stood silent... How could you, say it's up to me?

To say, if you say so, so it's over indeed...

How could you put the guilt on me, oh don't worry, I won't feel guilty...

How could he say that your shy...

To say your shyness wouldn't let you to say, that you love?

How naive was I, thinking after 5 years, after 5 years of me trying, I'm there at your heart...

How could you go to pool with your cousins after we brook up?

How could you? Leave the house that night?

How could you didn't send a text, saying you're sorry, never mind, just a good by.... You little kid...

Yes you were so immature & childish at such of age,

Guess what? I didn't cried a tear, I didn't felt guilty at all, I didn't kept your stupid gifts.

How stupid of me, thinking that you care?

That you want me to feel down... So ridiculous, you probably had forgotten, moved on, the moment you leaved the house...

There were me, having nightmares every night, dreaming of the talk, of the cries...

There were me breaking apart from inside,

There were me, there were me...

There is me, believing that I'm unworthy of love,

Believing that there's no man, who could feel, who could love.

This is me, breaking down after watching an romance cartoon...

Memories replaying, but I will not cry...

Nor you nore anything of you, is Worthy of my tears,

I am waiting, well, as a matter of fact, I still have hope.

There is a he, a boy, a human, who would help me to cope, to fly, to feel proud.

I am waiting for you, the lost one of my story....

In the darkest time, we found light"

When shadows took our beem away, we hold into one another harder.

When some of our own betrayed us, we seeked Justice.

When we faced pain, we prayed.

When we were cold, we received the warmest of compassion.

When we thought we lost hope, we were reminded, again.

That there is always something to be hopeful about.

When we thought there was no light, we realized we had putted a barrier on our eyes.

Thank you for being with us, hope