Peekaboo.. I don't see you... (Diary entry)

It's been two months or longer of nothing. You read my blog, you keep up to day but not once in all that time did you reach out to say Hi or share anything...

I know you have a lot of personal and professional stuff to deal with so I wasn't angry, the acquaintanceship ended. That I can tolerate, there is no hard feelings.

But just as I wrote Goodbye, some people I removed and some left.. And I felt free...

That is when you chose to reach out and talk... No no no. You do not get to be friendly just because of what I wrote.

I deserve better than someone wishy washy. If you had never read it, you would have kept ignoring me.

To add insult to injury you didn't apologise, you just messaged me like normal as if we're on the best of terms.

I don't like being ignored because that's always how it is with people. At first it's smiley and interactive and then it's nothing.

What do you want? For me to chase you? For me to sit and wait for you to notice me?

Forget it. I have learn't to be content on my own. I enjoy my own company and I can be there for myself because that's the only person I can count on.

Nobody else is reliable and I've known that for pretty much all of my life.

But I will not let you or anyone else just use me, take me for granted and ignore my feelings.

Acquaintances are built on respect and making time for each, yes we all have obligations but for someone important, you make the time....

I don't want to talk to you, explain or argue. I give myself away, each time someone enters my space..

I just get trampled on.

I occasionally wanted someone to talk too.. But that person is no longer you.

Goodbye I don't want to sacrifice myself anymore.