Being left due to mental illness. (feeling lost)
Hello I recently broke up with my boyfrined of 4 years. We've lived togther the entire time we've been togther so this break up is literlly killing me he's taking my whole home away. I struggle with PTSD and PMDD also Depression. Ive been emailing therapists and doing my part all the time its just never "fast enough" for him. He claims we havne't been in love for awhile now (even though ive been syruggling with my disorders I never tought he didnt love me anymore) so he recently started talking/messaging a girl before we even nroke up. I found the messages and had a mental breakdown and now he is using this as the easy way out so. Im so in love with this guy tht ive appologised and forgive him about chetating just to be with him. Im currently still llving with him but hes making this harder everyday he tells me new rules im breaking, telling me that crying is causinf fights and its all my fault. Even in the end of this month I don;t want to go I want to make it work. Someone please help I just really some outside or experienced feed back on my siutaion
@imaginativePineapple5549
Not sure how you are feeling now. I hope a lot better. I agree with @evokun - this isn't a healthy relationship for you. Your EX is using your illness as a weapon against you. I also have PTSD and see what you are going through now as another traumatic event. Yes, our illness can and sometimes does take a toll on the relationship however a supporting companion / spouse would /should understand and aid in and not detract from our therapy. We must be careful becuase we sometimes become codependent. Take the time you need but you may want to begin working yourself out of this relationship. Just doesn't sound healthy. Before we can really love anyone else we have to learn how to love ourself. Remember and remind yourself daily that you are special and you deserve to be loved despite your illness. If your boyfriend can't see that he does not deserve your love. I wish you all the best.
