Breakup
I need extra support right now because the girl I have recently started loving has ended things after 3 months. On top of that my birthday was just a couple of days ago and I realized that 3 other people prior have ended things with me on/near my birthday. Coincidence?
Anyhow, she said thatbecause she just got out of a 5 year relationship just 3 months ago that she needs time to figure her life out and that she is not ready to be in another relationship so soon. It makes some sense but it hurts nonetheless. I feel rejected. My stomach burns because I lost her. The other problem is that I work with her. I have to see her everyday that I work. I have to see her outside of work as well because the gay scene is very small. I have to see her having fun without me. I have to wonder if she is sleeping with anyone else. I have to wonder if she has fallen in love with someone else. I have to wonder if I was special to her at all. I hate that I have developed such strong feelings for someone who is not ready. It is very bad timing. I don't know if I can be her friend like she wants. I am sad and lonely and need some extra love and support. Thank you.
Cheer Up! ^_^
I can't say I feel ya. Because I have never dated anyone in my life. I will say this though, on my 15th birthday I had the worst of a worst fate in my life. I wasn't a couple day off or anything. It was literary happened on the day of my 15th birthday. I won't tell you what happened but it was the worst thing that can happened to a girl. I don't want to re-live that moment ever. I have never really been happy all my life. But you know what, that worst situation kinda help me up in a twisted way. I am actually focusing on myself and having a happy life on my own way. I am thinking that's what probably what happened to her. Five year of a relationship is a big deal. Maybe she is scared of thinking those same thought, that you also have, again. Maybe she is afraid to wear her heart on her sleeve, so please don't be so upset over the situation. And maybe you should do the same thing that she is doing. Get the mind clear and think straight. If you care for her you would be happy for her. You do have a big and warm heart! Take care of it!