Brekup

It has been 30 days since i broke with her. I let her go .i said i give you freedom from today .i did so because she was telling me she not wanted to stay with me. I love her so much.still she was not respecting me. But now i am missing her so badly .i feel like calling her i can not concentrating my studies.But also if i call her my self respect will be low again, .what should i do??

I am a job seeker and i am trying to get a job by studies .but recently i failed several exams to get a job.That is when she said that she not wanted to stay with me.i try to convince her but failed.then i let her go .i said her i am setting you free from today.be happy.

But due to brekup i am hardly concentrating on my studies.it feel like i need her to study?? What should i do??? Should i called her and request again to come back in my life???