Broke up and don't know what to do 🤷‍♂️

I suffer with Abondonmnet Anxiety and Low Self Esteem, I was I a narcissistic relationship for 4 years but managed to walk away.

After about 6months I've met a girl, but due to my issues I did act a bit controlling, as she is such an amazing person I didn't feel worthy. I did get a hold of it but alcohol (i dont have an issue, just general nights out) perpetuated the issue and culminated with a massive argument between us a couple of weeks ago. Since then I've engaged in self help, and have booked a therapist and feel really positive about getting myself finally sorted.

She broke things off last weekend, but said she still has the intention of being with me. She just feels so low she needs some space. Since then we still talk everyday, Initially I still acted the same, but then I have started to pull away because it wasn't reciprocated and I was getting hurt. I just don't get why she's broke things off if she's still texting me everyday? I've stopped making the first move, and she still texts me, we even looked at holidays for the new year. I'm just really confused as to what it all means.