Dumped after a 4 year relationship. Need help moving on

I try to keep it short and on point.College friends. 4 years into the relationship. She broke up with me over our first fight in the relationship.

Yes 4 years no fights.

What happened: I finished my engineering. My dad retried. My parents started having financial issues. So I started working at a job + own blogging business.

Yes I became a workholic. Needed the money. I couldn't give much time to the relationship. She was not having a job. And for almost a year she was jobless and honestly wasting time at her home. No classes no learning. She did not even read a single book. So I gifted her with Udemy lectures on fashion. She is a fashion designer. Some 5-6 courses.

Six months later she had not even opened those lectures. And was saying that she was having difficulty finding a job. So I scolded her. That she was being lazy and immature. And I said that she should learn to be hardworking from her lady friends. They are pretty successful and hardworking.

She got angry and broke up with me. I thought she would calm down. I apologised and told her that I was sorry and what I said was harsh.

Then turns out she was planning to break up with me from a month ago.

She gave a big list of reasons why:

I took her for granted

I did not give her time

I was too career and work focused

She did not get a job bcz of me

I don't have a fashin sense

She doesn't find me attractive anymore

I don't take care of myself.( looks)

I didn't understand her thoughts without her telling