Finding the strength to keep going
Hi everyone,
I'll try to keep this short. We broke up two weeks ago after being together for 4 years. We were engaged. We have a lease together until the end of July. The relationship was very toxic in the end. I know he was holding me back and I know this is the right thing.
I can't stop crying. I thought I would run out of tears but they keep coming. I know I'm strong and I know I will make it out a better person, but I'm struggling with the day-to-day battle. I already struggle with depression.
I need support and I need someone to talk to. I plan on getting back into therapy on soon, but I don't really have the money right now. There's just this crushing sadness that my relationship is over. I don't have a lot of friends and my family is far away.
Right now I am trying to focus on one step at a time but I feel like I'm getting nowhere. Today I'm trying to get the dishes done, and everytime I walk into the kitchen I cry. I just want to clean my house but the tears won't stop coming. Everyone keeps saying that I just need time. But how do I get through today?
Thanks for listening
@TrippinCats27
I'm sorry you're going through this. It's better that you found out now before you got married. How do I know this? Because I've been married for almost 25 years, have 3 kids, am half way through graduate school and I find out my husband cheated on me, again, Yup twice that I know of. I wasn't strong enough to walk away the first time 15 years ago and regret it. Now I get to do this with 3 kids. It's really hard becuase I can't cry in font of them, keeping it together until I just collapse sucks. Don't be like me, be strong. I have days when I'm so determined and days when I'm useless. It hurts, but you just need to get through each day and sometimes that means hour by hour. You can do this, believe in yourself. I hope that you will find someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. I'm here if you need to talk more ok?
@SLP2Be
Thank you. I know it's going to be better this way but...damn it hurts. I'm sorry you're going thorugh this pain too. Hugs to you and thank you for listening.