Heartache

Hi everyone. I'm new to 7Cups and have never posted a thread before, so I hope I don't sound crazy. I'll tell you my story...

Up until quite recently, I had been with the same guy for two years. He was everything I could have ever wanted in a partner - honest, handsome, funny, loyal, ambitious. We survived through our freshman year of college, despite the challenge of being at different schools two hours apart. I fell in love and he became my best friend. About two months ago, he broke up with me out of nowhere and said he didn't think he should be in a relationship. He plays baseball and will be gone all summer to play with a AAA team. I felt like this was the reason he didn't want to be in a relationship. I was a mess. I begged him to take me back and after only a week, he did. Fast forward two months and he just ended it again (even more abruptly than last time). He says he needs to figure some things out. I told him I wouldn't wait on someone who doesn't want to be with me. I'm angry, I'm hurt, and I'm confused. I want to be mad at him and I want to hate him, but all I can do is hurt because I love him with everything I have in me. I want to move on and I want to be happy again, but it seems so difficult. I just don't want to hurt anymore. Can someone please tell me what to do?