Heartbroken and blindsided

Hi everyone,

I downloaded this app for help with my anxiety as it pertains to my relationship with my boyfriend. We had just gone on a trip together, and my anxiety caused a lot of problems for us, as well as the fact that he was pulling away from me (I did not know this and blamed it on my anxiety). I downloaded the app the night we got back (Thursday the 17th), hoping it would help get my relationship on the right track.

One day later, he broke up with me - just penciled it into his day before he went to work. He claimed it had nothing to do with the problems we faced on the trip, and said that he "doesn't know what he wants" and "needs to focus on himself for a while." He said that I deserved better than that from him.

This was my first real relationship, so this is my first real heartbreak. I was completely blindsided by it - we had a conversation on the trip in which he had told me he was not planning on breaking up with me . I have no idea how to heal from this, or even where to start. I miss him so much, and I want him back so badly. I would do anything to get him to change his mind. I was falling in love with him, We only talked/dated/were in a relationship for around three months, but we moved so fast that it felt like a lifetime. In September, I'm moving in with someone close to him, and I'm not sure how I'm going to handle that. Honestly, I'm not sure how I'm supposed to make it through the day every day without him in my corner. Please help. I'm devastated.