Hoping for the best !!!

Hi, Me and my ex got separated 5 months ago after a relationship of 3 years. We got broke up because we are like same same by the nature but we belongs to completely different cultures like I am from east and she is from west . She already had a handsome baby boy when we met and lately we got blessed again with a baby girl. We both were having anger issues . One of the day her family asked me to leave that house. They went to the court and initiated legal process . I couldn’t resist that so I tried to commit suicide, unfortunately it didn’t went through successfully. Whoever got to know about my situation advised me to move on . I have restriction order that I should not contact to my the mother of my kids neither her family. I literally begged to every individual of her family about not to let my family apart but they have never responded. On Mother’s Day I sent a gift for my partner because kids can’t do it . Also I sent some food delivery for her and kids, lastly I dropped a letter to her requesting to give us a chance . She took everything and the messages that I sent to her family and made another warning against me that I was bother her and her family . I lived my childhood without my parents being together. I don’t want the same for my kids . Even though I was not completely responsible for our breakup , I took the responsibility all over on me . I have changed my habits and lifestyle completely, now am more close to god , taking psychological therapies just to make my self a perfect partner and a perfect father . I even break the law in a strange country just to show her that I don’t care about anything to do to just to get my family back . I did all to bring us back and she continuously doing opposite. I really love my family and I need them . Now there is nothing more in my hand . Just want to know if something else I can try to show my love for my family . Thank you