I broke up and feel guilty
Two days ago I broke up with my boyfriend, we were together for nine months, almost ten. I know it was the right thing to do but I feel so bad, I miss him and I feel like nobody will ever love me like he did; he was really caring and supportive but then acted like a completelly different person.
He just acted like that one time per month, I was really uncomfortable with him; even our friends were. He was also happen to be my caregiver (I age regress) just five or less times and I think that's why am I crying over him now, I feel lonely, I feel like nobody will love me because I don't do anything right so I should just stick with him. But at the same time I know I can't go back to date people like him, I am a people pleaser and that's literally my only function, I don't know how my personality is because I just adapt to people and do whatever they want me to do; that's my problem not his, I know. But he was so demanding, our friends said he was being manipulative with me and I think they're right but at the same time I don't want to demonize him because he's not a bad person.
I feel really bad right now, I'm dealing with a lot of stuff and I just need somebody to just be there. I am love deprived and I hate it, I hate the feeling of needing to be loved, of needing to please somebody because I know that's not okay. I just really miss him, I feel guilty for breaking up, I feel egoist and I wish everything could be okay sooner.
@MrMistyeye07 Hi, thank you for the courage to speak. I hope you're doing fine. I understand how you feel, there is no such an easy breakups. It is normal to feel sad and hurt. But have you try to talk to him before deciding to breakup? Address the issues and discuss possible solutions? Sometimes things change as we stay longer with our partner but relationship isnt just about love, happiness and rainbows. Challenges will eventually come on our way to test pur relationship. And communication is they key to everything. Both of you has to talk and listen. For me, relationship is more about understanding.
Dear, you do not have to act, move or be somebody because people wants you see that way. Stop fooling yourself. Let people love and accept you for who you are and not based on their standards. Do not live a life like being controlled. You are amazing, you are great and let people see that. If they don't see that, it is their problem not yours. Life is short to live with regrets. Show the world the real you, the right person will see and appreciate you even your imperfections.
@MrMistyeye07
Heyya, break ups can be hard and especially when you're still in love but have to end the relationship for your own good. I can picture how the relationship went and judging by what you said, you must have create a lot of memories and spent a lot of time together in order for you to feel this way.
Don't worry, it doesn't come out as you blaming him. Instead, the way I see it, it seems like you truly want to be there for him and vice versa. Moving on while still being in love is never easy, it takes a lot of time to do so.
You are a really caring and loving person from the way I see it, you will certainly find someone who loves you in their own unqiue way. Love is shown differently by different people <3 I hope you find that special someone ;')
If you ever feel down about the situation, feel free to contact a listener to get things off your chest <3
Overall, I hope things get better for you and you feel more relieved <3 <3 <3 We are rooting for you!! :D
@MrMistyeye07
Sorry to hear misty, breakups are definitely hard and can leave one with so many mixed emotions .
I appreicate ur courage to write it out. We all , at times, have some hard situations thrown at us by life and it certainly can be overwhelming.
may the best happen to u 