Idk a title...

I'm not happy with him. I'm alone and invisible. I am unsatisfied with my life. I know, and have known for months, that I need to leave. I just didn't expect it to be this hard. We have a son, 8 months. I've been close friends with him for most of my life. But he doesn't give a shit about me at the end of the day. I'm just a machine. Clean, cook, Mother, nurse, organize, sex, etc. I'm on autopilot. I want my son to have both parents in one house and so I stay on the hope that one day he is going to just 'get it'. I'm stuck. I'm stuck in a really uncomfortable comfort zone. Idk how this even happened to my life.