I dont know what i have gotten myself into...

Had a 1 and a half year relationship..it went through huge ups and downs. I really loved her but it all started to show when she used to say something and i used to get hurt everytime we had a fight because of my past experiences with her ..

One day due to this we broke up and all the friends and family got involved in it and made sure we didnt talk(actually it was my fault that they got to know)

After few months i texted her bcoz we had stopped talking and i wanted to know what was going on and again i lashed out said some pretty bad things because i got to know she had moved on and all the chats were circulating among her friends..

I dont know if i did the right thing or no .... At that time it felt okay but now i regret that she moved on (not that she shudnt) and i m just always making the first move

Can anyone tell me what have i done to myself ?!