I feel hopeless
I came home from a weekend trip to a letter from my boyfriend…well now ex, and flowers. He broke up with me in a printed letter and left his keys to my apartment along with flowers. I am absolutely devastated. Things had been rocky the last few months, but i can’t imagine my life without this person. I wish i didn’t love him, he’s treated me poorly at times, but ive grown so dependent on him and don’t know how to cope. I live alone and would always look forward to seeing him during my week, but now i will never see him walk through the door again. I don’t know how to eat or sleep at night with all the memories flooding me. I miss him, but wish i could hate him. The fact that he left a letter feels like he disregarded the year and a half we just spent together. I know i deserve better, but can’t seem to break my attachment and love for this person.
This is a cowardly way to break up with you. I am feeling for you right now, as the same thing happened to me. The shock phase where you can't eat or sleep lasted 2 weeks for me. It's better if you go live with someone during this period. If you can't, then come talk to listeners on 7cups every day. It really really helps. You will eventually feel anger at what he did, but not right now. Please don't beat yourself up for being attached, for feeling dependent, for being loving and loyal. These are wonderful qualities that you cannot feel ashamed of.
Ik I can absolutely feel you I've been in your situation but you have to take it as a lesson and you don't have to blame yourself and yes you can imagine your life without him don't be so much dependent on a person that his presence matters you or affect you you also know he treated you badly then why to think about that person and hurt yourself and don't compromise on your health your health should be first for a guy you can't stop living your life didn't stop there ik its difficult to eat ik but you have to do it for yourself and ik those sleepless nights flooded with memories ik that memories hurts the most but as they time is the best healer and it will heal everything and you'll be able to live with those memories and those memories won't be able to hurt you at that time Wanted to say just focus on yourself Love yourself and your family and friends hangout with friends enjoy and live your life to the best and there are many people in this world and you'll find your perfect match at the right time Just don't think about this too much keep yourself busy and stay happy 💓
@optimisticTalker4876, oh I am truly sorry to hear that happened, Talker. I totally agree with what @carambole and @SK04 said here. Sending lots of positive energy your way, keep your head up! 
