I just want him back
Me and my ex broke up a few months back. Being apart it made me realize I still love him very much. A month ago we started to hang out again like before. I thought everything was going great and we were working things out. A week ago he told me he was taking someone else to a wedding as a date. This broke my heart. All of a sudden he's being off with me, he tells me he doesn't know what he wants anymore or if he wants to be with me. A month ago he told me he loves me but now I can't even get him to talk to me. Throughout our relationship I had commitment issues. I always poked holes where there wasn't any. Eventually i broke it off with him because I thought he was better off without me and my screw ups. But I made a mistake. I just wanna fix the things I did wrong. I know I can't change the past but I want to work things out.
@Andiewam I can understand how you are feeling -- I have been in a similar position before. I don't think it's fair to you to blame yourself for him not knowing what he wants. He is probably going through his own stuff too. For me, it was less about me loving him and more about loving myself and putting myself first. I understand you have strong feelings for him, but feelings aside do you really want to be with someone who doesn't put you first -- who doesn't know what he wants? I think it's fair to allow him some time to figure out he wants, perhaps the time and space will allow him to realize that. If he comes back great, you can decide if he is still worthy of you and you can forgive him for walking away. If he doesn't -- his loss. You are a great person and this isn't your fault. You deserve to be with someone who doesn't make you doubt yourself. You deserve to be you and for someone to love and cherish and value you for exactly who you are. I hope this helps. Stay strong. My best 'advice' without being 'advice' is to focus on you and doing what makes you feel good, doing things you enjoy doing -- yes it is keeping yourself busy and distracted, but it works. Maybe make a list of the things you can do (even if it's once a week) but show yourself some love right now. You deserve it. Please feel free to message me directly if you would like to chat more. Take care of yourself. xo
@calidescopeheart thanks for your kind words. He actually just asked me for a break and I cried and screamed for a good hour.
@Andiewam
Whats meant to be will come back. @calidescopeheart offered some really good advice. I think it's time to focus on yourself and finding inner happiness. The good thing is, happiness doesn't require him being in your life. The difficult part is finding it. In the meantime, we're here for you, lovely 
