I know where this is heading

I know where this is heading I have a bachelor's in psychology I see the signs I see the patterns he is an addict and he's not going to change unless he wants to tired my head hurts my heart hurts my soul hurts we're starting 9 years of our relationship and for the last five it's been the same stop the drugs the testosterone because he doesn't want to get old and him getting mad because I don't want to have sex 24/7 and him blaming me the reason he does drugs because we're not having sex as much as he wants and he feels unfulfilled or he's bored or we can't do anything because we have a three-year-old and no family because his is dead and mines in Missouri and we live in a completely different states in them I'm tired I'm tired of the fighting I'm tired of the feeling lonely and angry I feel like I owe him because he helped me get my degree in Psychology I'd get to be a stay-at-home mom with her three-year-old but I also feel like he's holding me back because I can't get a job y'all Q's me of cheating and everything else I got three year old just learned the word boyfriend because our sixteen-year-old but her boyfriend over until she goes mommy's boyfriend daddy boyfriend Sissy's boyfriend and he goes to Mommy has a boyfriend and she goes yes boyfriend she doesn't know what she's saying I don't talk to anyone this is the first time I'm actually on a social site in a years because he didn't like the fact that I was getting attention in 2014 so I just don't have no Instagram no Facebook no Twitter know nothing I talked to my mother I talk to his daughter and I talked to him those are the the only people I talk to I'm tired of fighting it's getting physical we moved away from his drug Hub and he's still finding a way to get there and put us in the negative he keeps saying he's going to change any will and the longest has been 2 months and he goes right back and I just don't know if I can keep doing it anymore although I have no car no money no job the family I know where this is heading and part of me is too terrified to accept it