My Ex

Last February, I met a girl on a chatroom. Her name was Stephanie, and she was a year older than me and was very nice to me. We would talk in the chatroom for hours on end. Eventually our messages started to get more romantic and flirty and we confessed that we liked each other. What would ensue was a 3 month journey of happiness, abruptly cut off without fair warning. Before the breakup, we would always text "Good morning," "Good Night," and "I love you." We would skype everyday and I would help her feel better when her days were rough. Eventually, however, I started to notice a shift in behaviour. She stopped texting me in the mornings and would seem to be more cynical and condescending towards me at times. I was confused and a little hurt, but nothing could prepare me for what happened next. One day, we got into a misunderstanding over a skype call, which led to her being outright rude to me, up until the point that she said it was over. It was over. All of my heart and soul that I put into the relationship was over. I couldn't believe it. I cried for two days after that. I contemplated self harm (But thankfully realized that wouldn't help anything). A week later, she sent me a message saying that she never liked me and she liked someone else the entire time. Now, with it being a month since the breakup, I can't say I've fully gotten over her. I could go on for days about every little beautiful positive moment we had together as a couple. I hope I'll find someone better to cure my loneliness that I have been feeling ever since.