My First love was a successful failure

The title maybe shocking

But actually i think that was an experience i learned alot from maybe the hard way but i don't regret anything of it

I just wanted to talk about it

I meet that girl about two years ago didn't notice her at first and then she took over my head and heart.

She is beautifu, funny, always and likes what i like...she was perfect for me

I tried getting closer to her but i always hesitate cause am a bit shy....she started talking and breking the ice between us and we strated talking more and more and i started enjoying those talks more and more and my love to her growed more and more and i decided to tell her that i like her

It was one of the hardest decision i have ever took but i did it....And as kinda expected before telling her i was rejected

She told me she sees me as a friend and she would love that we would stay like that

I was so hurt i cried myself to sleep that night. I thought it was the end of the road to everything in my life.

Two weeks later she texted me and slowly we started getting back talking to each others but not regularly.

During this time special those two weeks that she didn't talk to me i decided i will prove to at least myself am worthy of being loved... So i finally took a step towards what i love..... Games and making games

I started seeing tutorials and learning more and more about the industry and what i want to work in it. It was a step in the right direction from my point of view and i think i wouldn't have taken it of i didn't experience this hurt

Now we are talking regularly and hanging out more being good friends....i still think about her alot but i don't think anything gona happen between us. It maybe the hard truth but i don't think she likes me or will ever do

This experience helped me grow as a person and with all the highs and lows of it

I think it was a successful failure of getting the girl i love

Thanks to anyone who cared and read this silly long post

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