Possible Divorce

Hi,

My husband and I have 6 children together and we have been together 9 years. Today I found out he's been lying to me for a long time now about smoking weed and having it in the house. While this one thing is not the end of the world its just the final straw on a pile of lies from him. In the beginning he would lie about where he was going with friends, then he broke my trust by texting someone/emotionally cheating (who knows if it was ever physical he says it wasnt), then it was about gambling, then he was on a dating app that he swears nothing happened on but again idk and that one almost broke us and i still struggle with it and now this. Im just done being lied to. I dont want to put my kids through divorce, I dont want to be alone raising 6 kids but also realize we may be better without him (obviosuly the kids would still see him), I am a stay at home mom and could never afford day care to work so i have no clue howd that work and he can barely support us as it is so he couldnt supposrt 2 house holds. Im just so hurt & lost I dont know what to do but I hate being lied to and its ruined our relationahip over the years I've pulled away and have trouble connecting physically & mentally with him because of it.