Recently separated

My husband and I have recently separated after being together for more than 20 years and two kids.

We hit our rock bottom in the marriage about 3.5 years ago and I was ready to leave then. I have love for him (he's my kids dad and I do want good things for him), but I lost all romantic feelings for him a long time ago. He is not reasy to stop.fighting for our marriage and wanted to try counseling. We've been going to counseling for the past three years. We are in a better place than we had been, but I dont see a future with him as his wife. At this point I would like us to get to a friendship and be able to co-parent respectfully.

Some days I am confident I am making the right decision, but other days I struggle and think "what am I doing?"

I fear a lot of things...what the future looks like for us and our kids, how am I going to do it on my own financially, how do I learn to be on my own after so many years.

So many thoughts and fears and confusion and anxiety. This is one of the hardest things I've ever done.

Looking to connect with others who have gone through separation/divorce who can maybe listen and help guide me through this process. I can also offer a listening ear for others as well.