Separation

I'll try to keep this short and to the point.

I've been separated from my husband for a month. After months of struggling and leaving to my dad's several times I finally put my foot down. My husband's an alcoholic. When I left I told him if he decided to get sober I'd come back. At this point it seems obvious he doesn't care about us. He's made absolutely no effort. He texts me all the time making casual conversation and even inviting me over, like we're dating again. It's like we never got married.

I've tried to be there for him, physically and from a few miles away. He knows there's an AA group in town, he knows his family and I support him, but it hasn't made any difference. I've tried ignoring him, chatting with him, talking about our issues, not talking about them. I've been blamed and guilted, insulted and put down. One minute he says what I wanna here, the next he's angry and defensive and cruel.

I'm losing hope, but I still want us to work out. But deep down, I don't think he feels the way I do. I don't know what else to do.

April will be our one year anniversary. It was so different at first. The alcoholism isn't the only problem, but I wanna start there.