Should I wait?

Well, this just happened so I want to be quick.

I broke up with my boyfriend of 1 year.

It all started because i was being friends with my ex girlfriend, really besties, and as a joke we started to flirt with each other, and that started to think about the "what could've been" you know, that kind of stuff. It really confused me.

I talked to my boyfriend (in that moment) about it, and I tried to be honest with him, and I choose him before everything, so I cut all ties with my ex girlfriend. But then I started to get anxious, if i thought about my future with him i got anxiety, If i thought about something sexually involving him and I, i panicked, i don't know why.

So I told him to him to give me some time to be alone and think to myself what do I wanted. He was really really sad about all of it, so he just decided to cut ties with me, for my own good :(.

I don't know what to think or do, everytime i think of him I get sad, and I'm really confused about my relationship with him, I don't know if I love him or I just miss him, I thought this could be an opportunity to be alone and figure myself out, even if it just for a couple of months.