What does he really mean?

Me and ex boyfriend broke up for a 2nd time a week ago we first broke up because he gave me an ultimatum a month and half into our relationship me and him never met in person and we live 2 hours apart from each other his ultimatum was if I didnt come see him I knew what was up after that I got turned off from his ultimatum I didnt end up going to him because I run a business and me and my family were in the middle of remodeling it and then we stop making efforts for a couple days but then I kept making my effort and saw he didnt and I blew up at him with what bothered me and he said that he was going to make and effort again week went by nothing so I had enough and I broke up with him and went ghost on him for like 10 days unghosted him and he messaged me saying he misses me no lie so we decided to make shit work effort was there in the beginning but then he is a rapper and I told him I was going to buy him a pair of shoes for his music video he was going to shoot that day but I came up short on money and he went off on me saying that I lied to him Im fake Im full of shit and to lose his number I should keep fucking with the lames Im used to because Im not ready for real if i want to show him that I deserve him I should do what the fuck he asks for when he says it I owned up to my mistake and apologized to him but this is what I dont understand Why say Im this and Im that and to lose your number and be all this but he wont take me off social media and still sees my story