Why do I feel like this
I recently broke up with a boyfriend of two years we have a seven-month Old son together and he also has stepped up to the plate flr my other 2 children. Early on in the relationship I realized he had a problem but me being young I continued to take him back the first year even after cheating and pushing me. Recently we had been getting into a lot of arguments and I discovered he was cheating once again we have always had a break up make up relationship pretty much here in the past couple of months things have gotten really bad he began smacking me and punching me and choking me whenever he was upset at me either calling him out on his wrongs or other guys trying to approach me he would cry and promised me that it wouldn't happen again and I would keep taking him back just on this past Sunday he came in at six in the morning and I told him I was done after that he blew up and smacked me in the face.when we left the house with my children to a friend and packed all of his stuff and took it to his moms when he found out he kept calling my phone so I changed my number yes this is new but why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong I have never had someone be all the things for me and I don't mean just materialistic step up and help me with my children now I feel like no one's going to want me I have three children I'm really depressed I can't even barely sleep all I'm doing is crying I know that I need to be away from him but why is my mind and heart going in two directions
@Deethree
Oh my you poor thing that's not good I'm very sorry that has happened to you and your children I know your scared for you and your children I was in this same sort of situation myself you need to get your children somewhere safe away from him your children don't want to see there mother being treated like this cause they'll think its okay to do that to people its not you need to think about your children don't worry about men right now you got something way more important then men keeping your children safe raising them to be happy healthy kids you can do this on your own parenthood isn't hard people just think it is your children are there for you and you are there for them have you told the police what was going on they may be able to help you please keep you and your children safe they need you right now I know your scared but so are they your all there got you are a strong independent woman you deserve better and your children deserve a better father I know it hurts and its upsetting but think of your children how happy you all would be once you all settle down away from trouble hope this helps good luck and all the best stay strong
Dear one,
You are not unusual at all to feel torn. Someone that expressed love and csaring for you and your children is hard to let go of all at once. But it sounds like you did the right thing, even if it doesn't "feel" like it and you hurt inside and you are confudes, and with 3 children to care for plus everyday life- I'm sure you are stressed and exhausted! Is there someone else that step up and be there for you in even small ways? - Family, friend, coworker, Faith community sister/brother? You will need support and help to get through this period of loss and grieving- and it won't be easy. Don't be afraid to ask for help - you need support and you deserve love and respect. I wish you well.
