boyfriend compatibility problem
I dont see my boyfriend as my husband but he loves me more than anything i dont wanna break hisheart Im starting to regret that i got into a deep relationship with him. I have declared my endless love for him before. But now im starting to resent his personality and the future i see with him. He is kind and sweet and hasnt done me any wrong. I just dont like how he communicates with me. He annoys me. He makes me cringe. But hes just being himself. I sound like picky little btch but its more than that. I just. I dont think our minds mesh well together. Weve been together almost 2 yrs. And as ive said. Weve already established a deep relationship. I even made plans with him in the future and i always say that my love for him will never die. This will make me sound like a phony but i dont think i mean any of those. I mean i did at the time. Back when i was still carried away with all the romance. But now. My head is just full of regrets of being with him. I really dont like him as a person. But. I care for him. I dont wanna break his heart. Everytime i go cold on him. He starts saying that hes afraid of losing me, that he wouldnt know what to do of i leave him. See, hes alone in life. He has no dad. His mom is abroad. The rest of his family is far from the city. Hes just living in an apartment with his cousin that he isnt that close with. Im all his got. And his life revolved around me. Just the thought of breaking up with him crushes my heart
What have you done about this and what are you going to do? I am going through this exact same thing right now!!! i don't want to waste my life on someone that I'm not happy with but I also don't want to break his heart and even worse end up regretting my decision to leave him. We shared some really good times but I feel like we are not meant to be. I have tried to tell him this and he will not listen, he claims that relationships take work and that I am being fickle. Also we live together so that makes it even harder because I have no one that I can move in with if we do split and I can't afford the place on my own. In a perfect world we could continue to live together and just be friends, like we should have just stayed in the first place. This is just so hard because I know it's the right choice to leave him, but I feel like I am telling myself otherwise because it's such a hard thing to do and even think about. If you are still going through this problem with your man... it would be great to give each other some support and share ideas.
At least you don't live with him :)
It sounds as though this relationship is not meant to be.