confused ex? advice? 😐

hi. so me and ex broke up 10 months ago. in those 10 months he contacted me 3 times, 3rd time has been a few weeks ago. we didn't broke up because of bad things between us. but due to problems in his household.

now i kinda brought up the subject, meeting up. by accident. he kept saying he'd stress out if he would happen to see me. so i kinda dared him in a playful way. but i could tell he was nervous about the idea. he kept answering with idk's, idk what good would come out of it. so i told him if you ever change ur mind, i'd still be open to it. he answered like "i will keep it mind thank you". now when u are totallagainst the idea you wouldn't tell that right? after that i didn't replied, which i should have i think..

i honestly think timing was off to bring it up but it wasn't my intention haha. now this boy has admitted to be stalking my socials, but unfollowed me. but is still allowing me to see his content? he's on private, ive a open page.

i know some of you might say, girl move on.. but trieed.. but none of them worked out. you know when people break up but can't seem to let go of each other.. we are one of those people.. i guess.

ive seen that boy cry in front of me, which i never expected nothing can beat real emotions. 😩

i just don't know where to go from here.?i do think i should be the one texting back when i think its right since i didn't reply back then. any advice will be appreciated ❤️❤️