i lost her
I lost someone I love. She said she needed time, but now after everything with me overthinking the situation, I'm scared she won't ever come back. She blocked my number and restricted my account on ***. I did talk to her about restricting my account just so I wouldn't be tempted to text her when she needed a break, but now I'm scared she hates me more than anything. I'm worried she is telling people things about me. I never wanted this to happen. In December, stuff was happening to me on social media and I really didn't want to be alive anymore, but she came into my life and asked me if I was ok. She was there for me through it all and she saved my life. After that we have been talking constantly everyday till now. She made me so happy, happier than anyone has ever made me, and now I lost her. She was the only one who told me that I deserved to be alive and now she's gone. I lost her and I lost myself. I don't think I even deserve to be here anymore. I just hope she's happy.
Losing someone you love and care about can be incredibly painful, especially when it feels like they've suddenly cut off contact. It's natural to feel scared, worried, and overwhelmed by the situation. It sounds like this person was a source of support and comfort for you during a difficult time in your life, and it's understandable that losing that connection would feel devastating.
That is so painful to lose someone you love, especially when they were the only positive part of your life. And of course the not knowing whether or not she will come back and not being able to contact her is so difficult. Anyone would be anxious in that situation. I really want to encourage you if you are having thoughts of suicide again, please call 988 to talk to someone. You are not alone and you deserve support.