what's wrong with me..
So, here's my situation.
I've been with this guy for about 1 year and 2 months, and everything was really great, but recently i started to feel that things were really boring for us, especially being with him in quarantine. I caught myself fantasizing about my life with other people, even thought it wasn't intentional.
After talking, we decided to take a break from us, because i was starting to get anxiety attacks every time that i was with him. And he accepted very well. After being alone for 3 weeks, we decided to be again in a relationship, i was getting good about my anxiety and all.
So, he came yesterday to be with me for a week, just so we could be closer. But my anxiety started again, and it was strong.
My problem is, that every time that Im with him, i got anxious, and i started to feel fear that I wont love him anymore, that i just don't love him anymore, etc.
And when I'm alone, i feel normal and confused, with the fear of if I let him go, I would have lost a good guy in my life.
I don't know if all this anxiety comes because Im in quarantine or something more deep, I really hate the idea of discovering that i don't love this boy anymore.
@BlueGxrl3 From what I am hearing, it sounds like maybe you are not doing enough in your personal time, and you mentally know that, as seeing as you (assumingly) think about/talk to your boyfriend the most, (again, these are assumptions) you think that your relationship is the thing that should change, and make your life interesting. This has happened to me before and I solved it by simply taking more time to myself. Playing games, doing art (if that's something you can do), and maybe reading are things I would recommend. But please do not quote me on any of this, these are assumptions.
@BlueGxrl3
i think that probably its just the fear of losing him thats bringing along the anxiety, the fear that you might not love him anymore is overshadowing what you really feel, hon he isnt going anywhere if you'll have him, but do u love him dear? thats the question only you can answer, and if u dont, do u want to be with him just for the fear of losing a good guy? you deserve a lot more than just being with a good guy dear! i think you might wan tto give yourself time to think about it and see what you feel and then make a decision, although i would suggest doing this when you dont feel anxiety
i hope my answer helped you! have a good day! :))
