Fear

Hey.

There is this one very nice boy who is apparently interested in me. We do chat sometimes and I know we share many hobbies and personality traits. He is actually kind of how I imagined my partner to be like. But the issue is me. I'm really afraid of being in relationship with him(or anyone else). I think it may be fear of intimacy, but I can't really say. My friends told me not to worry about it and just go for it, but it's not just a worry, it's a fear. Every time I think about it, it makes me feel sick and seeing heteroromance always reminds me of this issue. I really don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt this boy, but I don't know if there is a way. I can't say I'm in love with him. I enjoy chatting with him, but I was already content that I will be forever single. And like I'm friends with my friends for 6 years, but I can't hug them or anything physical like that. I have hard time talking about some issues with them, only through apps is it easier. The only process I made is that I somehow can stand it when they hug me. But can't say I feel comfortable. I really don't think I'm ideal partner for anyone. And my friends are kind of pushing me to be in this relationship, what isn't helping me. They are already in one, so they probably want me to experience how good it is, but it's really hard for me.