I am unwanted and undesirable !
Hello, everyone!
This is my first time here.
Lately, I have been struggling a lot. I can't get over the fact that nobody will ever like me, no matter what I do.
Last night, I tried to commit suicide. Ended up failing. The weight of all this negativity and certain bad experiences is bringing me down and I am not able to take it anymore.
First of all, I am am very unfortunate. My face is extremely hideous and there is nothing I can do about it. I have people come up to me and make fun of my face.
Nobody ever wants to initiate a conversation with me as they cannot bear to ever look me in the eye.
Furthermore, I have also tried asking for advice online for tips on enhancing my appearance, only to get completely obliterated by people mocking the way I look and telling me that I will always be hopeless.
At times, nobody even cares to respond.
Everybody ignores me. Nobody thinks I am worth it.
Even I don't value myself anymore.
I just want to be loved.
@Sadmanjy987 hi there, lovely! I just wanted to say that I'm personally very glad that you didn't die, because you seem like a wonderful person <3 Please, please know that they are wrong about you!! You never, ever deserve the treatment that you have been getting from those people, because you are a lovely person just as you are! You deserve to know that you matter, that you are valuable, that you are important, that you are unique, that you are beautiful and lovely and incredible just the way that you are! I can't imagine all that you have had to go through, but I want you to know that they are more than they make you out to be. I know that it can be hard to believe that beauty goes deeper than the surface, but it really is true <3 You are so strong for pushing through their comments and continuing, and I'm so proud of you for still being here <3 I just want you to know that I think you're a really, truly amazing person, and that the things they say just aren't fair. Please take care and stay safe, lovely!!
@Sadmanjy987 I forgot what I was going to add, which was this:
You are always, always worth it. You are worth happiness. You are worth love. You are worth the world. You are good enough just as you are, and you do not have to change to get there. You are worth it, and you always will be.
*applause for nep nep* good job on the positive psych but that is rarely effective on glass completely empty people (such as myself). Back to the OP, I must presume you are in some sort of grade school, most likely highschool if people are making fun of the way you look. It's something you can't really change (without lots of money) but usually you can find a way to work with it. If I try to dress well people call me a pedo, if I don't shave I'm a stoner, and if I am in a hurry at the grocery store I am a stalker apparently (none of which are true). I will note that if you are looking for a entry level job that will hire you and most people usually think unusual is cool would be either produce stocker or organic section. For whatever reason those 2 departments seem to have the most... diverse population. I worked at a store and started to notice the trend with a few other stores too. Another option if you are religious might be to try and find one of the more modern 'laidback' churches, less judgemental and more accepting of new members
