Any guidance would help
So lately I’ve been having a problem with staying intimate with my long distance boyfriend, I feel like I love him so much but things are hard because of the distance and his strict parents so we barely see each other. Lately I’ve been cheating with another guy that I’ve had feelings for off and on for 2 years but I have a feeling we’ll never get together which I’m okay with because I want my boyfriend but I don’t know why my emotions are all over the place like this, and I just lost a loved one yesterday which made it worse
I think you're gonna have to tell your boyfriend that you cheated. If you you love your boyfriend then you should treat him like your one and only. Cheating because he is far is not a solution because you want to be entertained or find the one. You are gonna hurt the person a lot and yourself. Trust and honesty is important in a relationship.
I'm sorry you lost a loved one aswell. Take your time to heal. It's gonna take a while, but you got this. Do something to distract yourself. It's gonna be ok