Back to Trusting Again

Earlier this year I caught my boyfriend cheating. After a long talk I decided to stay and work it out. A few weeks ago I caught him downloading apps that he had used for cheating. When I confronted him about them he told me that he deleted them as soon as they were downloaded because he felt guilty. After talking some more we are working on moving forward. I know actions speak louder than words, and maybe I’m naïve, but I believe him when he says he wants to be better.

Last night I asked a question I shouldn’t have and one I really didn’t want to know the answer too. So now all I can think about are the women he slept with and all these self hating thoughts come to my mind. I even feel gross when he touches me.

How do I find that trust again and get all these other women out of my head?