Depressed and tired

I left everything back in my country 2 years ago to try a new life with my actual partner. We have a 1 year old baby now and I'm stuck in a place I honestly hate.

I’m starting to have depression for lack of sun and absolutely no help with my baby. It's 24 hours me.

The relationship with the baby's father is also not the best, we are from different countries and he tries his best to make me want to move to his country one day. He uses the fact that he has a huge family and their own house there and I have nothing on my country. Well, I have a 57 year old mother who has a lot of issues and is living in a friend's house in bad conditions and working for free to pay it. My partner just keeps telling me that she needs to go to the doctor and live in some institution because she is unable to care for herself.

I'm absolutely heartbroken, my baby doesn’t know any family yet and we never traveled with him because of documents and COVID restrictions.

I feel so so tired and I have pains on my muscles and joints, I just want to sleep and cry and go out of this grey place.