Fresh Breakup

Hey,

I just broke up with a guy I was seeing for a few months. It was kind of a mutual breakup, and I actually went there intending to breakup with him and he sort of helped me with that. :/ He was my first time and I really still have feelings for him as he is very sweet and we have so much in common, like a strong interest in biology and nature. At the same time, I knew I wasn't happy since he was looking for something very infrequent and low commitment, and could only hangout every 3-4 weeks (which started out at 2 weeks and got farther apart with him being more distant and canceling more). I felt so happy and understood when I was with him but then the very long time in between dates was super draining emotionally and I felt pretty disrespected tbh. It was still really hard today because I sort of by accident picked a really romantic walk by the lake as a place to tell him to break up lol. So much of me just wanted to hold his hand and kiss him and hug him by this lake, but I knew again that he has hurt me and has been incredibly distant. It was for the best, but this is just all very emotional right now.

The good news is I have connected with a new person that I've been friends with for a while, and it seems like he likes me. I am excited to see him this weekend and get to hold his hand and stuff. I don't want to rush into things too much though and it will take time to build a stronger connection with someone new.