In a relationship anxiety and trauma

Hi. I am new here. I found this app while going thru online looking for a psychiatrist. I really can't control my emotions now. I have no one else to talk to and with.

Background:

I have a boyfriend, for almost 2 years now.

Before we get into our relationship, I told him how I wanted to be loved, and how sensitive I am, and what are the things I am not comfortable with.

He said okay na we will work on it and compromise. He said he was willing to take risks to be with me and not to worry coz he will not do the things I am not comfortable with.

But he did.

1. Stalking and searching and liking and adding random girls on Facebook

* I asked him if he knows them personally. No, he said. He just likes them.

* I was not comfortable with that because what is his purpose on doing that? On my part, it's kinda like he is searching for side chicks.

* Additionally, he still has contacts with his ex flings and ex gfs and communicates with them. While being with me.

2. Collecting videos and photos of 'almost' naked girls on Instagram and Tiktok. Even watched scandal of a girl he knows back in school

I confronted him about those, I am very vocal of my feelings. He said sorry and promised not to do it again.

But then he did again.

3. He broke his promises thrice. Everytime I confront him, he was mad at me. I gave him my full trust each chances. But he just throw those away.

Now, he did it again for the 4th time. I had enough. I told him if he really want us to work out. Compromise. And promise not to break more promises. And this time to gain my trust, coz I dont fully trust him anymore

Whats bothering me now is the constant reminder of what he did. I cant help but doubt him now for every action he does. And he still gets made everytime I doubt him. He says that he is changing now.

I overthink. I cry almost every night. I carry the pain all the time.

I need some insights please. Please be gentle as well.

My boyfriend throws some harsh words at me each argument saying I needed to be 'real talked'.