I need Help. I have social anxiety and a crush too
I'm in 11th grade in India. Since grade 6 i have no friends. And now I'm preparing for JEE exam.
Although I'm good in academics, I feel very lonely. In one chemistry exam, i lost a mark for a question which I knew. That made me thinking that I'm the worst for about 6 hrs. All in all, my life is depressing as ***. I don't know the jokes and slangs which are appropriate for a social circle. I'm also scared to talk with new people. And I don't know why, but nobody likes me. Few things I have to brag about are good scores, best Spotify playlist of class, knowledge of pop world, Stock markets, Economics and Languages. (I Know 4 languages)
Now enters a girl named, say T. When I saw her I had a instant Crush on her. I want to talk to her.but I'm not only scared 0f her, but also public humiliation which will come with it, if she thinks that I'm a Stalker. Thanks to a Guy in our class, Most boys are stereotypically labelled as A**hole students with no future forward. I would say that I am on the boundary of good and bad students.
I want to talk to her. I believe that a good relation could possibly teach me how to be part of a society again.
Also it would be hard for me to step back because I went into depression for a month during grade 10 final exams when I heard that I might not see my old crush ever again.(also at that time exam pressure was high)
When I approach her, thoughts like "I'm not worth to be her boyfriend" and " I'm like that guy, she will hate me" comes to my mind
hello, firstly i’m so proud of you appearing for the JEE as an indian ik how competitive that can be i hope you do well!!
secondly, slow down you’re only 16, you have a whole life to live upto ahead losing a single mark on a paper does not mean the end of the world, maybe it was a lesson? now you’ll be more careful than ever right? i’m sorry you feel that nobody likes you i’m sure you have many secret admirers and it’s hard for some people to mingle with others, because believe me when i say this i’m preaching to the choir, i suck at socialising too, i get awkward rethink all i thought and then feel like i embarrassed myself but this one time i decided i’d be a compère for this show and i went up the stage thinking if faint but i was actually very confident, so eventually you’ll get it because right now you’re only seeing a little ahead in life, if you zoom out there’s so much more you’ve accomplished
and lastly the crush 🌚 ik this will feel very cliche but you should try to talk to her and build up your relationship, if you let the fear of failure stop you you’ll spend the rest of your life, thinking about what ifs.
hope i helped <3
