However now almost 10 years later my life has never more miserable and I've never been more lonelier. I did end up getting my bachelors and masters in computer science which I didn't think was possible even for someone like me, and also got a 6 figure job however I realized how much has changed in this world since those days 10 years ago. First and most certain is that university wasn't easy, it was diffcult and just stressful but I pushed because I knew one day I would be happy and successful, it ruined my mental health but therapy helped me a lot. However now its 2025, and people don't value education anymore, they look at me and just laugh at the fact I wasted all my time focusing on dating when it was completely useless. Keep in mind my education was my life, I am not smart in any means, I legit have like 10 brain cells in my brain. No dating, no partying, barely any friends and now I'm walking red flag.

This isn't the life I want nor dreamt of, I feel like this is a nightmare, people call me ugly and say horrible things about me, and the issue is that these people are better than me and I can't compete with them. I'm more lonelier than ever, I live alone in my condo, cook and clean alone and travel all by myself. I really hope one day someone just loves me for me and just have my own family and have the dream ever since I was a kid and that was to be a father.