Saw his Tinder messages

Been with my bf for almost 2 years now.

3 weeks ago I was on his phone while he was sleeping because I felt like writing him a note for him about how I've been feeling lately to read at work. I decided not too because I didn't want to "victimize" myself so I clicked out of the note app. I saw another folder called "Lifestyle" which caught my eye because there was the Among Us game on it which was odd because he had all his other game out in the open on his screen. There were two other app that I didn't recognize so I clicked on it and my heart dropped. It was Tinder and the other was Bumble. He never had it before when we got together and now there it is. I just burst into tears, took pictures (for myself, not to share with others) and left. He was the one who message the 3 girls and what hurted me was him saying "Hey beautiful" because that's what he calls me.I had brought it up and he had deleted the apps. I had told him how he would feel if I got mad at him and went to find random guys off social media and called them handsome. &That even when I'm mad at him I don't even think of doing something like that to him but when he get angry he go and do that to me.

Just last night when he was gettiing drunk, I guess he decided he wanted to find some camgirls off of omegle. I knew this because when I woke up to get ready for school I went to look at his laptop and he left the chat open. Nothing was said in the chat but just knowing that he went to go look for camgirls broke my heart. After I was done with school I didn't want to come home and see his face. I just went shopping for a while and finally came back only because I didn't want our dog to be stuck in the kennel all day because my bf usually sleep in late because of his work schedule. I am mentally and physically drained from him being like this. He doesn't see how much I love and care for him. Honestly, that trust I had for him that he'd never do something like that to me isn't there anymore. Whenever he decude to drink and is downstairs by him I'm always wondering if he is going to try to talk to other girls or when he come to bed I feel the need to check his phone which I hate doing because this is unlike me at all. I'm just so angry, sad , hurt and just needed to vent.